My little love bugs.

My little love bugs.
Bike park fun for Fall Break

Monday, August 2, 2010

Romance of the baby

I guess what I wish most is that I could have the romance of having a baby. To conceive without the whole family knowing when I ovulate and how much it cost and when they would know if the procedure took or not. To surprise the family and friends with a cute and creative poem or shirt. To feel the kicks and have that expecting mother glow. To quit my job and spend the day on the floor looking at the greatest miracle around.

1 comment:

  1. Jess, hang in there! I just read all of your posts and can't imagine what you are going through...even though it took us almost 2 years I did not face the hurdles you are facing. I too was unable to "surprise" the family with the romance of being pregnant. Everyone knew when I was on my period, when I took clomid and when I ovulated. It was awful and really became stressful. All I can say is do what you need to do to stay sane and somewhat emotionally stable...which really isn't possible..but for example, when I went through my stuff I avoided baby showers and anything like that. Some might think it is rude but I did what I had to do to protect myself and the vulnerable state I was always in. I love ya girl, hang in there and you can call me whenever you need to just vent!